Sunday, June 03, 2012

An Ottawa PR Story


As the Chair of the planning committee for CPRS National 2013, I am delighted to be with my colleagues in Victoria this June for Currents 2012. In addition to the rich professional development and social opportunities this occasion gives me, it's also my honour to be the official representative for Ottawa, inviting you to join us next year in the Nation's Capital. 

By way of introduction, I wanted to share with you a little about my over 30 years in the business. 

This blog post is a collection of a series of 25 posts I wrote in 2009, in celebration of the 25th anniversary of the launch of Algonquin College's Public Relations Program - of which I am a member of the first graduating class. This recap of that series will give you just a little glimpse into one PR career, built in the Nation's Capital. 

I hope it also sheds some light on why I'm extremely passionate about Public Relations. 


1984: it all begins
I was a new university graduate looking to do something with my BA in English and History. Although I had been accepted at Queen’s to enter their Bachelor of Education program, I wasn’t convinced it was my destiny to teach English to children. Meanwhile, I had been working with my father, a scientist at the National Research Council, since 1978, running a scientific association called the Canadian Industrial Computer Society (CICS). Using a very early personal computer, I had been editing their quarterly newsletter, managing the membership lists, and organizing workshops and conferences – and really enjoying the work of “translating” technical speak into plain language. 

In the summer of 1984, as I continued to ponder what to do with myself, I stumbled across a program on the local community access channel which showcased various professionals across the region talking about their work. I remember very clearly seeing an interview with Sandi Digras, who was speaking about her work as the director of “public relations” for the Chateau Laurier Hotel. As she spoke about the media relations, special events, and writing required in her job, a light bulb went off for me: this is what I was meant to do! Now if only there were some place for me to go to get training… 

meeting Claudine Wilson
Eureka! The Ottawa Citizen tells me about the creation of a new program in Public Relations to launch that Fall at Algonquin College – and I know I’ve found my destiny!

In addition to writing the usual entrance exams, PR program founders Claudine Wilson and Robin Dorrell personally interviewed all of the would-be PR students (an entrance practice which they were, sadly, forced to abandon shortly after). Claudine and I met, and it was magical. We had so much in common: we both had English degrees, and were both only children who lost their mothers early to cancer. Through the luxury of the hour or so we spent chatting in her office, we found common interests and passions, and hit it off immediately. 

Claudine clearly and succinctly painted a picture of her vision of the public relations practitioner's highest calling: to bring the right information and people together, at the right moment, to inspire people to move mountains in order to affect a positive change in the world. In that moment, my love of words, my love of storytelling, and my love of organizing found a home. Claudine showed me what a creative force PR could be. I was mesmerized.

the City of Nepean
1985: not even a year into the program and I have my first break: a chance at a summer job at the City of Nepean in their Information office. I’m in competition for the job with two university students, but end up landing the job working with the Director of Information Services, Andrea McCormick – who was to become my first workplace mentor. She single-handedly taught me to get over my fear of the media, making me do all of the follow-up media calls for each City Council meeting. She also gave me one of the best pieces of advice I’ve ever had as a junior employee: don’t just bring me problems, bring me solutions! I began my love affair with public service.

As I entered the second year of the program, the curriculum – and the extra-curricular activities – began to intensify. We took on a fundraising challenge for St. Brigit’s Soup Kitchen which was to become the first in a long and storied line of fundraisers for community charities held by Algonquin PR students over the years. Our PR skills didn’t stop with fundraising, though: we actually designed and built a three-layered-cake float for the Salvation Army to use in the Santa Claus parade. Our reputation as the “can-do” program was well under way.

Algonquin Vice
OK, sounds cheesy now, but in 1985, "Miami Vice" was all the rage. As most college students do, we planned to raise some of the funds for our first fundraising campaign by hosting an on-campus pub. But we were not content to just stick posters up around campus and pray for a good turnout. No indeed – we managed to persuade two TV broadcasting students – and our tv production prof -- to help us produce a promotional video for our pub. Shooting took place around the campus, and an entire weekend (and a few all-nighters) were spent in the production studio cutting together the finished product. We toured the campus with a VCR and TV, playing our video for anyone who would watch. Tickets – at a mere $1 apiece – began to fly. It was a sellout event – with much credit to our "multimedia" campaign.

I’d love to show you the video, but youtube wants to strip out the soundtrack as we used a few copyrighted songs. I will just leave you with this image: two cool cats in sharp suits and shades prowling the campus to try to determine “who killed that unfortunate 2-4 at Bert’s Bar”…. Like I said, cheesy…

a point of reference…
desktop publishing? e-mail? digital cameras? are you kidding me? the ‘80s in Algonquin College's "E Block" were a different technological era. It still staggers me to have been witness to such dramatic changes in such a “short” time – erm, well, you know what I mean. Let me paint you a few word pictures of life in the class of ’86:
• smoking in class (we were kicked out into the hall in second year)
• manual typewriters on each desk;
• special “word-processing” classes, taught on Wang systems which occupied their own special lab across campus;
• pmt cameras and waxers for laying out print ads; and
• splicing audio tape using, well, tape! 

By the time the PR program moved in, our beloved "E" block – now a parking lot on Woodroffe campus – was already home to not only to a few hundred students, but to an assortment of mice, squirrels, and other vermin who took advantage of the fact that the building had long since come to the end of its useful life. We persevered for a few years, huddling under tarps when it rained and occasionally having to evict unwelcome visitors who invaded file drawers and overhead crawlspaces every summer while the staff was away. Needless to say, we all cheered the arrival of the new media building when it finally arrived.

Information Officer, ‘80s style
As a member of the three-person “information services” team at the City of Nepean, my colleague Lois and I were essentially the city’s 4-1-1 service. In the days before databases and the internet, residents often turned to City Hall for answers to questions as wide-ranging as “how do I get Mom placed in an old folks’ home?” to “how do I get rid of the skunk under my porch?” to “where is the nearest bus stop?”

Over the course of a couple of years, we built the Black Book – a three-ring binder stuffed with every scrap of information we would possibly need. Our motto was that if we didn’t have the answer, we would find it and get back to the citizen. We sourced out provincial and federal contacts, community organizations, advocacy groups, crisis and information lines – everything we could to add to our bag of tricks.

I see now that we were trying to be the “Service Canada” of the City of Nepean: no wrong door, focused on service, we always delivered for our clients. But it sure would have been easier with a database…

the PR agency
One of the most innovative aspects of Algonquin's two-year PR program is the second-year-run student PR agency. Clients from the non-profit sector who would otherwise be unable to afford PR services benefit from students keen to apply what they’ve learned about media relations, special event planning, communications and public relations in a “real-world” setting. My agency clients included Ottawa’s Savoy Society, and my own client, the Canadian Industrial Computer Society. 

The agency work was so interesting that I remained committed to helping students even after I graduated. I worked with students as they took on clients such as the Neil Squire Society, Greeley Players, and Algonquin’s own Horticulture Program for their annual Spring Flower Show. The client list has grown into the dozens since we first hung up the shingle, many of them returning year after year – a true testament to the consistently high quality of the students’ work. And I can truly say that I honed my client relationship management skills in this setting – skills which were to serve me well in my own consulting business.

on consulting
The existence of a Public Relations program in Ottawa was not a secret for long. Soon, we were getting enquiries from outside organizations wanting to hear about our curriculum, and interested in securing the services of a student or graduate. In the early days, we also had the opportunity to develop customized training programs on an ad-hoc basis. 

In fact, one of my first “consulting” gigs was to develop a media training session for a local utility company. As a graduate with a good understanding of the municipal infrastructure, I was in a good spot to design and deliver the workshop for their senior executives. Through a three-hour session, we covered the basics of handling media enquiries, and were able to run through some practice scenarios with the spokespersons-in-training. Not only was I now an employed graduate, I was also beginning to develop some pretty robust consulting skills!

a Prof is born…
It started small: supervising a few shifts in the agency, giving a few guest talks. But there was a little flicker deep inside of me that responded early on to being in front of a class full of people. I loved being able to encourage a discussion during which new ideas were explored – and most of all, I was hooked on the rush that came from seeing the light bulb go on for a student. And let me tell you, I have learned as much from my students as they have from me. Teaching compels me to keep current on trends in the practice, and to keep true to the highest standards and principles of our profession. 

Over time, I’ve had the chance to teach almost every core course in Algonquin's PR program. I taught full-time through two sabbaticals, and in the early years supplemented my growing consulting business with part-time teaching. I have been pleased to see how technological developments have made much of the more mundane aspects of teaching easier, and allowed for more innovation in the classroom. 

I also have been able to bring my teaching experience to the Service Canada College, which delivers service excellence and program-related training to thousands of employees across the country. I renew my commitment daily to learning and growing as a coach, mentor, and willing participant in the exploration of new ideas.

the Algonquin College and PR family
I remember vividly my first Mass Communications lecture at a local university which shall remain nameless, sitting amongst some 300-odd other nervous youngsters, waiting for The Man to show up and enlighten us. When he finally showed – late, trailing his entourage of TAs and adjuncts – I was underwhelmed. Even from the depths of that giant lecture hall, I could see that he was a small, high-strung little man who clearly wanted to set the tone for the coming year with the strength and conviction of his opening remarks. “Refer to your handouts if you wish to follow along” said he as he began to lay out the curriculum for the coming year. For the first time, I looked at the mimeographed sheets I had been handed as I entered the hall, and what I saw helped to set the future course of my life: the Man, however mighty he might think he was, could not spell. And what was worse, his grammar sucked, too.

Four years later, I took my new English degree, left The Man, and never looked back. When I entered my first class at Algonquin the following year, I looked around at my 30-odd classmates who, like me, were about to embark on this brand new adventure, and knew it was going to be a whole new ball game. I would know every one of their names by week’s end, and maintain contact with many of them to this day. Together, we shared a remarkable journey through the birth of the PR program, and I, like many of my fellow alumni, still feel a very strong connection. It has never occurred to me to turn away from Algonquin – I will always feel that it is there that I found my first academic home.

the Nepean sandstone project
My first major project with the City of Nepean saw me traveling from event to event with a maquette of the proposed new City Hall which was under construction for close to two years. Our message for taxpayers: this is your facility, and we are proud to tell you that it’s already paid for. This was, needless to say, a good news message, and a great introduction for me to the business of PR. 

We travelled with a slab of Nepean sandstone (famous as the major building material for the Parliament Buildings) into which residents were invited to help us carve the city’s official Coat of Arms. My partner and co-facilitator in the exhibit was a man named Robert Brown, a third-generation stone carver whose family had helped build the Rideau Canal. After two years of public events around the region (and with a little final help from Robert), the finished product was installed outside the Council Chambers of the new building. 

As I led my first tour of the new facility when it opened in 1988, that Coat of Arms was there to remind me of the thousands of conversations I’d had with Nepean residents leading up to the unveiling. I recognized many of the faces of the young amateur carvers as they roamed the new library and theatre spaces. And I knew that I’d been part of a great PR project, one which I could come back and visit for many years to come.

Centrepointe Theatre opening
In June of 1988, I was the City’s Marketing Officer, helping design the celebrations for the opening of the new Nepean City Hall, which featured not only offices for city staff, but a 900+ seat theatre, a public library, a multi-purpose council chamber, and a visual arts gallery. Centrepointe Theatre signaled an impressive step forward for performing arts in the region, as it provided access to professional-level facilities to dozens of community groups. A black tie event to open the space featured a performance by Ottawa native Rich Little in a performance of Peter and the Wolf, accompanied by the Nepean Philharmonic Orchestra. Funds were raised to create the Nepean Endowment Fund for the Performing Arts, providing support to dozens of community arts groups.

As a PR practitioner, I particularly loved the fact that the story of Centrepointe Theatre we were telling was the story of its place in the community. The Box Office, front of house and production facilities were operated with the support of a dedicated corps of volunteers who received training from experienced professionals. Many a budding director, set designer, and producer cut his or her chops on a Nepean Little Theatre or Les Petits Ballets show. By building shows from the ground up, and encouraging local talent, Centrepointe Theatre, in the 20 years since its opening, has put a real sense of community into the community arts scene in Ottawa. 

Ballet on Bank Street
After the excitement of opening Centrepointe Theatre, my marketing job for Nepean’s Parks and Recreation department seemed to devolve to simply promoting kids' gym programs and art classes. Certainly a noble enough calling, but I was looking for a new thrill. Right on cue, the professional ballet company with whom we were co-producing a dance series announced that their Director of Communications had quit. "Hmmmm," thought I: "is this what I’ve been looking for?"

The next day, I was sitting in a tiny office upstairs from the old CHEZ radio studios in the Byward Market, chatting with a leotard-clad Frank Augustyn about what he was trying to do with Ottawa Ballet. “I want to bring a new audience to dance” he said – and I could tell by the fire in his eyes that he meant it. I had found a new home. Leaving behind my city pension, I took a cut in pay and dove into the arts full time.

A new home for the company was one of our first challenges. Working with our corporate sponsor Standard Life Assurance, we put together a deal which saw us moving into a brand new, street-level studio at 142 Bank Street. Based on a model Frank had seen in a shopping mall in Florida, the concept was to bring classical ballet out of the shadows and plunk it down on one of the busiest streets in Ottawa where they could be seen hard at work every day. We worked with local merchants to promote “Ballet on Bank” at various sidewalk sales and other events, and opened up our rehearsal space to other community dance groups.

In time, Ottawa Ballet was to become another victim of the recession, and the spot where our studios once stood is now, literally, a parking lot… but nothing can take away my memory of the day that Ballet came to Bank Street.

The Tin Soldier
Although my time with Ottawa Ballet was short – just under two years – it was enough to see us produce two dance tours, and two original productions. The most remarkable of these was The Tin Soldier, an original ballet based on the classic Hans Christian Andersen fairy tale, for which we created original music, costumes, and choreography. 

Building a ballet from the ground up requires significant funding. Through our innovative “Build a Ballet” program, we broke down the production into its component parts, such as choreography, lighting, set design, etc., and priced out the costs associated with each character in the piece. We then did a targeted marketing campaign matching potential business partners with appropriately-themed sponsorship opportunities. Little by little, we covered the costs of mounting the ballet, and on opening night, our sponsors were thrilled to be able to identify so closely with their part of the production. 

Our full dress rehearsal the night before we opened was turned into an invitation-only children’s event, and we reached out to community groups and the Children’s Hospital to identify families to fill the seats. I still remember sitting in the dark that night, finally seeing the entire ballet run through from start to finish, and after all that work, I found myself weeping like a proud mom. Frankly, I have yet to replicate the feeling of immense pride and accomplishment I felt for having been part of creating such a beautiful work of art. As the curtain came down on that first performance, I thought I’d never feel it again. Fortunately, the followup CBC tv production of “The Tin Solder” has become something of a Christmas tradition, so I get to revisit my old friends every year.

my first recession
I recall vividly when the summons came. On a beautiful Friday morning in the summer of 1991, I was to present myself to the Chairman of the Board of Directors, a corporate tax lawyer whose impressive offices loomed over the downtown court house. When I arrived, I was ushered into a board room where the GM and the chairman were sitting waiting for me. The axe fell, and my jaw followed it: I was laid off. I had two weeks’ notice and was out on my ass. They would be keeping on my assistant, whose smaller salary and year of experience working with me would help to see them through the next season.

Faced with two weeks to ponder my legacy to the company, I realized that it was more important to me that they survive than it was to express my outrage at being dumped so unceremoniously. I built a detailed work plan to get them through the coming tour, and left careful instructions to help them manage their media and public relations campaigns.

Sadly, the company only survived one more year before the doors closed forever. The company scattered to the winds, and the building was taken down shortly after that. All we have left are the memories – and some pretty great tour posters, if I do say so myself.

Gagne Creative Communications
Suddenly unemployed, I faced another crossroad. I had been toying with the idea of heading overseas to visit a friend who worked with the Canadian foreign service, and called her to look at some dates. Before I knew it, I was putting things in storage, selling my car, and headed to Germany with no firm plans to return.

I spent the next three months in Germany licking my wounds and indulging in glorious day and weekend trips, and subsequently ended up in England where I helped promote, renovate and run a small bed-and-breakfast in Canterbury. As a recent tourist and rabid fan of the little university town, I got to know it in some ways better than my new local friends - so I was an excellent hostess, knowing all the best tours and where to take the best pictures. I had free room and board, along with a little PR work to keep my hand in.

Alas, six months after leaving home, my travel visa required me to return to Ottawa. Looking through the classifieds, I saw a tiny ad for a PR person for a local charity. The salary was pitiable – but I realized I could likely help them on a contract basis for a fraction of those salary dollars. Pitching the idea to the GM, I landed my first client, and my consultancy was born. 

I will always cherish the freedom self-employment gave me. I never set a meeting time before 9, and controlled when and how I spent my days. The financial advantages continue to enrich my life – and I give much credit to my father, who told me early on: “remember to spend your before-tax dollars on the things that you need – you only pay tax on what’s left over!”

the first client (… and the second…)
You never know where that first client will appear – or how you will find them. My first client came through the classified ads, and winning that account represented for me an act of sheer bravery and chutzpah. My second client was, by contrast, a kind of repeat customer – as a teenager, I had babysat his two girls. Years later, after a lunch with my father, he called to ask for some help with a newsletter.

Now here’s the lesson I learned from our first lunch: sometimes (as it turns out, more often than you might think), clients don’t actually know what they want. Many think they do, but if you are a good practitioner with the patience to listen for awhile, you may discover that they need something entirely different.

My newsletter client needed an entire PR program: media relations, customer relations, and a trade show/conference outreach strategy. But he only realized that after our conversation had probed why he wanted that newsletter, to whom he intended to give it, and how he planned to use it as part of his overall communications program. 

The other thing I learned from my newsletter client is that I was on to the right business model. My philosophy with a corporate account like his was that I could help to define the PR program, develop the tools, and train the people on staff who would take the program and run with it. I was, essentially, working myself out of a job. It was my client who first pointed it out, in fact: with respect, he saluted my choice, and said that it was a business approach that would resonate particularly well in the high-tech consulting world, where I hoped to parlay our work together into some referrals.

Careerbridge
The early and mid 1990s were an exciting time to be in communications – and working with technology clients allowed me access to some pretty cool tools, too. In addition to embracing hardware innovations like Palm Pilots and cell phones, I couldn’t wait to take advantage of e-mail and the internet, which was absolutely revolutionizing the world for communicators.

I joined Careerbridge Corporation when my teaching career and my high-tech consulting business were competing for my attention. As the PR director for this new high-tech startup, I was charged with getting trade media excited about a new web-based recruiting software – a precursor to Monster.com. With free resume posting and job browsing available to a large and talented pool of high-tech workers, Careerbridge was able to attract employers like Nortel, Mitel, Newbridge and many others to subscribe to a dedicated, focused recruitment portal that even allowed for “virtual interviewing” via webconference. It was a very exciting story to tell.

As we were putting together our case study newsletter and media kit, I was looking for a catchy headline. I was doodling (as I often do)…. “e-mail”, “e-commerce”, hmmmm, how about “e-cruiting”? Ultimately, the slogan ended up lasting longer than the company. Shortly after I was laid off (once again, to save budget), they sold the company and, like many tech startups, the principals made their bang and moved on. My legacy? A great coffee cup, a nice denim shirt, my first front page story in the Globe’s financial section, and "e-cruiting", a very cool slogan you’re just going to have to take my word that I created. And along the way, I gained a very useful education in the world of high tech.

the Government of Canada
Now these high-tech clients were all very well – high-strung, high-maintenance, but high-return, too. However, for an Ottawa practitioner, the brass ring in consulting is landing that first government contract. This was my next goal – and in 1999, I was hired to lead communications for a Y2k project. My client, Public Works and Government Services Canada (PWGSC), had to test and verify that all of the federal office buildings were Y2k "compliant", and their systems wouldn’t fail when the clock ticked over on January 1st, 2000. My  job was to communicate with some 28 other federal departments, the building management industry, and our Minister's office on the state of our preparations.

The Y2k project was intense, and driven by an immovable deadline – and in retrospect, it taught me nothing useful about how government manages its deadlines! Frankly, following Y2k, I don’t think I witnessed another deadline which didn’t move like a leaf in the breeze… but nevertheless, my foot was in the door, and my relationship with the feds was born. The excellent contacts and working networks I built across government to support our Y2k program stood me in good stead as I competed for and won another contract to lead communications for employee and industry relations for a departmental renewal initiative. 

Eventually, as the contracting dollars began to shrink, I had the opportunity to join the public service through a competitive process. Since my time at the City of Nepean, I had been hooked on the idea of public service, and the promise of steady employment with Her Majesty was impossible to resist.

the 20th anniversary
It was stunning enough to witness the turn of the millennium – but to suddenly discover that it’s been 20 years since you started College is another shock. In 2004, we marked the 20th anniversary of the creation of the program with a reunion event.

The highlight of the night was the declaration by PR Program friend (and then-Mayor of Ottawa) Bob Chiarelli of “Claudine Wilson Day” in Ottawa. The declaration was in recognition of her leadership in the program, and its contributions to the community over the last 20 years. 

It was at that point that I realized that we were building a legacy not only for the program, but for the community in which we live and work. At the time of the 20th anniversary, we had already raised close to $100,000 for various community charities, and were on our way to doubling that number.

Is it any wonder I am such a proud grad?

Service Canada
I had been at PWGSC for a few years when I caught wind of the Service Canada story. I was told that there was this crazy bunch of people trying to change how Canadians access their government services. Instead of having to bump around namelessly from jurisdiction to department to bureaucratic answering machine, they were proposing a “one-stop shop” for all government services. 

My little practitioner’s heart just leapt. Now here was a cause I could get behind – a story I wanted to help tell! The organization was only a couple of months old, and they were still building their shop. Imagine my delight when I discovered that their DG of Communications was Jean Valin – not only an APR, but a Fellow of CPRS and former President of CPRS Ottawa. He took one look at my cover letter, saw Algonquin and “PR”, and I had an interview.

Now let me clarify something: it RARELY happens that way. Like my immovable Y2k deadline, government is only prompt when absolutely pressed. But Jean was pressed. I was qualified, so I deployed over. Within the first year, I had helped shape the corporate comms plan, produced a corporate video, a public awareness brochure, and witnessed the birth of a brilliant series of TV spots: the Service Canada Booth campaign. Like building a ballet had been, it was a wonderful experience to be part of the creation of something new - and you don't get those chances very often in government!

APR
Inspired by the opportunity to work with Jean, I decided it was time for me to pursue my accreditation as a PR practitioner. I looked across my last three years of work and saw the perfect case study: the customer relationship management program I had built for PWGWC. 

Accreditation is not for the faint of heart, nor is it for the recent graduate. It is, however, a wonderful opportunity for reflection on past accomplishments, and an excellent exercise for validating what you know. 

My philosophy going into exam day was this: I’ve been in the business over two decades, and if I don’t know my stuff by now, I never will. I brought along a few of my favourite sources, but my main reference for the exam was my own body of work. In the final result, that seemed to be enough: I received the top written exam score, and the top national overall mark for that year. I received my APR at the national conference in Halifax, and was very proud to do so. 

For even the most modest among you, I encourage your to give yourself this gift. It is credibility, recognition, and a little leg up over the “competition”. And it feels surprisingly nice to slip that pin into your lapel now and then. 

celebrating 25 years... and beyond...
Our celebration of 25 years saw Algonquin PR Alumni gather for a champagne reception and gala dinner/dance. Of course, the event could only have been possible with the help of a small core of dedicated fellow grads, every one of whom demonstrates how connected we are to our College, to our program, and to our profession. 

A strong theme for the celebration was “family” – and I can attest that, once you join the family of Algonquin PR students and graduates, you never leave. I am very much looking forward to celebrating the next 25 years with my Ottawa PR family.

And I think the same can be said for our profession: once you've experienced the thrill of a solid PR campaign, you're hooked for life. Through organizations like the Canadian Public Relations Society, we build strong connections within and across our PR family, connections which only serve to make us more effective at what we do: change the world for the better.

I'm looking forward to welcoming my extended PR family to Ottawa in 2013 for Conversations2013. I hope that you will join us in celebrating our Passion for PR.




Sunday, February 26, 2012

Oscar thoughts

Hollywood's big night has always been must-see television in my home. Back in the day, I would likely have seen most of the nominated movies. These days, not so much.

But the tradition survives. The allure of the live event never fades for me. From the chatter on the red carpet, to the inadvertent curse word from the podium, I'm in it till the bitter end, to catch those surprising little unscripted moments and spend the night with my favourite actors and actresses. These are the triumphant moments of the people who have excited my love of storytelling for as long as I can remember.

Break out the bubbly and enjoy! It's Oscar night.


Friday, October 28, 2011

I love my Facebook friends


You know the ones - you have them, too. You're lucky if you see each other in person once a year - - or ever. The ones who live in the same city might come out to the same functions once in a while, but where you really meet is on your Facebook Walls.

They are always there with just the right thing to say.

Once you learn the art of managing your privacy in a public space, Facebook can be a powerfully cathartic forum in which to talk your way through things. Moments. You know the kind: those Crazed Moments where your emotions are raging and you don't know what to make of the world. People can still completely surprise me, even after 50 years on the planet. In those moments where I'm completely off balance, I feel as though my world stops making sense.

But after those 50 years, and now with the additional support of my Facebook friends, I have learned the five rules of the Crazed Moment:
1) they drive me absolutely nuts.
2) they will pass.
3) they are opportunities for learning.
4) they are always creative and, ultimately, positive.
5) they are unavoidable - going around them is not an option. They just wait for their next chance to come out to play. We are meant to walk through them.

See, I like it when I think I understand how things are. When the rules change on me, I get very upset - and need time and space to walk through the moment to get to the "opportunity" part as quickly as possible. (And along the way, I get to remind myself of the Crazed Moment rules. Lately, I do tend to get tripped up by #1. I blame it on early menopause. :-)

Enter my Facebook friends. I post a message of exasperation. A sigh. A curse. A cry of outrage - not directed in any libelous way. But a cathartic outburst to the world. "A Message in a Bottle"".
And there's always one or two who will always come through with an encouraging word.

Thank you, Facebook friends. You know who you are.

Wednesday, October 05, 2011


One of my very first posts, inspired by Steve Jobs. 
reposting now, as I remind myself who my heroes are.


(original post, June 15, 2005)

Steve Jobs says it best: you can only connect events backwards through time. We can't always predict -- and often fear -- how things will work out, but somehow, things always seem to work out for the best. So why don't we just trust that that is so? We need to take more risks, be more spontaneous, and have more faith in ourselves -- as long as we are following our hearts' desire.

I've lacked the true courage of my convictions when it's come to my dreams: to sing, to write, to reach out and talk to people, all in my dreams, all in my grasp, but never in my plans. I've feared the worst, and settled for the safe thing.

Life's too short. It's time to take stock of the cards I've been dealt, and try to see that I'm holding a damned Royal Flush!

Thanks, Steve, and thanks, Dad, for telling me to Google "Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish". I wish for all of you reading that you take true inspiration from Steve's message -- trust us, it will all work out for the best. Just let your light shine, and follow your passion.
I'm going to.

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

Public Relations and leading change

As a PR practitioner, I very much take to heart our calling:

Public Relations is the strategic management of relationships between an organization and its diverse publics, through the use of communication, to achieve mutual understanding, realize organizational goals, and serve the public interest. (Flynn, Valin, Gregory, CPRS 2009)

What a blessing to work in a profession that is focused on being a change agent, and on being what I like to call “a force for good”. Over the years, I’ve opened new public facilities, brought a new audience to classical ballet, and helped change the relationship between citizens and their government. Lofty goals, all, to be sure. I am a passionate worker who is at her best when driven by a sense of purpose.

But since joining the Canadian Public Relations Society (CPRS) board, and getting involved in our professional development program, I feel I’m finally getting a chance to take it to a higher level. I’m getting to do what I’ve always wanted to do: some PR for the Public Relations profession.

In response to societal stigma and negative stereotypes about mental illness, people often conceal symptoms and fail to seek treatment.


Changing the Conversation about Mental Health: this is the headline for CPRS’ upcoming PD session. It’s been an intensely personal experience for me, as I’ve had to work hard to pitch and position the session in such a way as to attract a large and – I hope – influential audience. I want the bloggers and the journalists, the HR professionals and public health practitioners, to come and join in a social movement.

We’re just catching a wave – companies and celebrities are starting to step up with money and support for those isolated individuals who are in mortal danger right now. But with every conversation, each time you bring it up, share your own experiences – and we all have our own stories – we can make it feel just a little bit safer to talk about how mental illness has affected our lives.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Kindred spirits

Likelihood that you will suffer from a mental disorder at some point in your life: 1 in 5

In the years following my own struggles with depression, I would occasionally come across a brave soul who would tell me about their own issues. Only in conversation with a kindred spirit did I feel safe revealing my own story. Years later, after joining the public service, if the kindred spirit was a co-worker, I would often still hold back for fear of my employer finding out my secret.

Projected rank of mental illness in terms of "disease burden" by the year 2020: #1.
Percentage of work days lost in Canada accounted for by mental illness: 30%.
Rank of mental illness in terms of medical disability claims: #1.

Conspiracies are funny that way. They can work for you, or work against you. In those earlier days, I conspired to keep my secrets, only sharing them with those very few people in my life who could "relate" to them. That conspiracy slowed down my recovery for years.

Now, I am hoping to join a much larger conspiracy: one of cooperation. I want to join with Daniel Alfredsson, Clara Hughes and Luke Richardson in their conspiracy to bring this issue into the healing light of day. I'm ready to talk.

Monday, February 14, 2011

The silent conspiracy

So who were we hiding from, Megan and I? For starters, I hid from my father. I was damned if I was going to admit to him that I was having a hard time coping. I was certain he would sneer and tell me to "belt up". Of course, I was wrong -- he would have been supportive -- but I couldn't see that at the time.

Media reports covering teen -- or any -- suicides were extremely rare. It's only recently that I've discovered that there was an actual editorial policy on this. Reporters were told not to cover suicides, as it was thought media coverage would encourage copycat behaviour. The result, however, was to deepen our sense of isolation -- we continued to feel alone and ashamed.

Suicide is one of the leading causes of death in both men and women from adolescence to middle age.

If you can't tell a parent, who can you tell? When I had my "dark time" in the '90s, I was lucky enough to have an excellent family doctor. He recognized quickly what I was going through, and in addition to putting me on Prozac, he became my therapist. We set up a weekly appointment during which we would simply sit and talk for awhile. Slowly, I began to feel less isolated, and to regain some sense of control in my life. Prozac also helped me break the cycle of mood swings in which I had found myself drowning.

As I gained back some strength and confidence, I quietly re-entered my life. As a self-employed person at the time, I didn't have to face "re-entry" into the work force in the sense of having to step back into an office setting. But I did find it challenging to manage public gatherings, social events and the like in those first months back -- I was certain people could tell how alien I felt, and discover my secret.

next: kindred spirits

Friday, February 11, 2011

You can't fight genetics!

In retrospect, I can see clearly now that there is a strong thread of mental illness running through my family. My father had a brother who spent a great deal of time institutionalized to deal with manic depression. A cousin of mine openly battled depression and substance abuse issues (a very common combination) for many years, before he lost his battle last year at the age of 46.

Mental illnesses are biologically based brain disorders. They cannot be overcome through "will power" and are not related to a person's "character" or intelligence.

After the end of a difficult relationship, the death of my mother, and the loss of a job, I myself ended up spending two years on anti-depressants back in the early '90s.

Even as I write those last words, I worry about revealing that information publicly. While my own battle with depression wasn't as intense as those waged by my friends and family members, I still felt ashamed that "I couldn't cope" on my own. It was only to my best friend Megan that I felt comfortable revealing my "secret". Little did I know, she was fighting her own battles. And even though we were "there for each other" as we struggled with our sadnesses throughout our 20s and 30s, I was never to know how she'd attempted to take her life on three separate occasions before she finally accomplished it at the age of 45.

For each completed suicide there are 100 attempts, and over 23,000 Canadians are hospitalized each year for a suicide attempt.

In her suicide note, my friend said "this was inevitable". How I wish I had her here with me now to argue that point...



next week: The silent conspiracy

Monday, February 07, 2011

Let's Talk

Almost one half of those who feel they have suffered from depression or anxiety have never gone to see a doctor about this problem.

This week sees the launch of two separate campaigns focused on mental health. Canadian Olympian Clara Hughes invites us to join Bell Canada’s Let’s Talk campaign. And Ottawa Senators Assistant Coach Luke Richardson launches Do It For Daron, a youth mental health initiative in honour of his daughter, whose death by suicide at 14 stunned us last November.

They are inviting us to join an important conversation, one that has for too long been considered taboo: they want us to open up and talk about mental health.

I welcome their initiative. For some time now, I have been struggling to find a way to dig into this issue. In addition to my own reasons (about which I will write more in future posts), the issue is especially personal for me: just over two years ago, my best friend Megan killed herself. Although we were close friends all of our lives, I was unaware that this was her fourth suicide attempt. For some reason, she didn't ever want me to know when things got bad.

Any therapist would tell me that the guilt I still carry over her death is "normal". But even in those initial days of shock and sadness, when I could barely dress myself let alone think straight, I knew that I had to find a way to extract some kind of meaning from her death. I knew that it had to be a catalyst in my life, inspiring me to take on this very difficult issue and somehow find a way to become an agent of change. But I didn’t know how. And I certainly wasn’t ready.

Not long after Megan’s death in 2008, Ottawa Senator Daniel Alfredsson launched “you know who I am”, as a way of showing support for people like his sister, who suffers from an anxiety disorder.

In his blog, Daniel was very clear about his reason for getting involved: "This is a way I can demonstrate my love for my sister and encourage people to get help when they need it without fear of shame."

When he launched "you know who I am", I wanted to hug him. But I still wasn't ready to go public with my story. I had to wait until the crying stopped. That alone has taken me more than two years -- and frankly, were it not for this recent rising tide of encouragement coming from Bell and others, I might never have been ready.

up next: you can't fight genetics!

Friday, December 10, 2010

putting away childish things

As I approach my 50th birthday, I find myself once again taking that extra-long look at my life, reflecting on what the last decade has brought with it. I seem to look very much the same as I did on my 40th - at least I don’t have that shock to deal with. But the changes in my life in every other way have been absolutely transformative.

(You would think I’d look more different on the outside... but I digress...)

I’m pleased to say that part of my growing up and putting away my childish ways has involved me truly living my life facing forward, not backward. I certainly still find moments to think back, and even allow myself to spend time mourning those whom I’ve lost - they are legion, after all. But I no longer feel myself carrying the terrible weight of regret and melancholy around with me that used to have me dragging. And no more do I rail against the System’s latest attempt to crush my spirit.

Instead, I have learned to embrace my optimistic, creative and innovative spirit - finding the opportunity in every situation and looking forward to where it might take me.

The changes taking place in my body as I age have been less easy to carry with grace, I must confess. Because of my chronic back issues and arthritic feet, I often feel much more than my age. Also unchanged (alas) are my chronically bad eating habits. So I suffer, knowing it’s my own fault. Turning 50 may be just the motivator I need: after all, something symbolic always has to happen around the Turn of the Decade.

This time around, it’s a different kind of celebration. I have resolved all of the major issues which plagued me since leaving home: I’m blissfully married, own my own home, and have a secure job with the income that accompanies it. My “to do” list has a lot more items crossed off. Now, it’s time to start adding some new items: items which will feed my spirit and help me make my health a priority again. After all, everyone tells us that life begins at 50 - so I say, bring it on!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

The Game

That’s not my label – everyone talks about the process of managing a career in the System as “playing the game”. It’s a skillset all its own, and proficiency is only acquired through first-hand experience over time.

There are tips, of course, which I try to share with those who can (or care to) benefit from the information:

- more is more when submitting your resumé through the online application system – the key is to understand that it’s a database program which will search your submission for key words. The more hits, the better – so give tons of detail on each major project/accomplishment within each of your job descriptions;
- answer all interview questions from the point of view of what you would do – including details on your reasoning for your choices (see tip #1 above!); if you are up for a management position, talk about what your advice would be, and how you would organize your team to do the actual work. There’s a huge difference in vocabulary and focus when you talk from the point of view of the manager – many accomplished project managers (myself included) have sabotaged themselves in management-level interviews by presenting themselves as the doers;
- think about the intention behind the questions – departments are free to write their own interview questions, and sometimes, bless them, they’re not very good at it. Think carefully about what they are trying to reveal about you with the question, and compose your answer accordingly.

I say these things, and I think these things, and then I go out to another interview – or sit on another interview board – and I play the Game. In the fullness of my eight years in the System, I think my Game skills are finally getting pretty good. And I’ve now accumulated myself a fabulous coaching staff, and an entire town full of people who are behind me in my search for a place I can truly stretch myself and make myself at home.

Because for me, the reward for playing the Game well is a place where I can shape the future direction of the organization: bring stakeholders together and rally around a common vision and goal to make a difference in the world. That’s the stuff that makes my heart sing. That’s what I’ve been training for since starting my career back in 1978 as the voluntary manager of a science society based out of the National Research Council.

I’ve got 15 years to go in my career in the System – that’s enough time to really dig in and become a celebrated member of an organizational family tree. Just as my father, Dr. Roland Gagne, will always be remembered as Mr. Modeling and Simulation at NRC, I want to leave my own mark by being an innovative, passionate advocate for an important Canadian institution. A true public servant.

For that, I will play the Game. Besides, there is always something to be learned along the way.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

the other day I received an e-mail from my 88-year-old aunt Lorraine from Edmonton. My beloved aunt is a dauntingly bright woman who, in addition to being a practiced lawyer, is self-taught in a handful of languages and starts every day with University on the Air.
Since e-mail became available to us, we have written regularly, and often on the subject of my chosen profession -- one she, I firmly believe, still does not fully comprehend. I like to believe that it is because she wishes we didn't need PR people in the first place.

In her inimitable perfunctory style, she wrote:
subject: The Public Service
... is being re-tooled.
What is a wiki?
Love,
Y.A.A.
(Your Aged Aunt)


Today, I replied:
Since you asked, the "wiki" is a web-based collaboration tool which is, ostensibly, designed to allow us in the civil service to help with the "retooling".
I, as a matter of fact, am helping to design an employee-focused campaign to get people to "connect with our vision" and all that jazz.
you know, the stuff you hate.

but we are at a critical point where we can predict precipitous levels of retirements from the senior ranks, making it evermore important for us to focus on ensuring people with qualifications and experience like I have don't leave, but stay and tough it out.

Because it's tough.

There is no money or time for training - but we are insisting people be "excellent".
blah blah blah - you've heard me rant about the failings of the System.

What you are hearing in the media lately is the System actually going on record as saying they want to hear from us as they "retool" - by which they mean, figuring out how to do more with less.

A complex and intriguing challenge.

I will be happy to share more about the "collaborative process" if you are interested. You will have to keep in mind that it is a tremendous exercise in public relations - which should pose an interesting challenge for you. Something you likely loath - but it is my bread and butter, after all. I love the challenge involved in rallying a group of people around an idea. The more people, and the more complex the idea, the bigger the challenge. Never a dull moment in over 30 years...

At any rate, I'll look into the wiki more and get back to you with details, if you'd like to hear how it works.

happy Spring!
love
Lea